Once again, i'm on the holiday mode. hahahahahaha. I know. I know. I know is ridiculous that i'm on the holiday mode again like once again but is true. Probably gonna rot another one and half month until the beginning of February 2013.
Well, tomorrow is the so called doom day which is end of the world day. hahahaha. Do you guys believe it? Personally i don't cuz is kind of ridiculous but who knows it will actually comes true. Frankly, I don't really fear of this day, maybe i had been taking life too easy that we should enjoy and cherish every single moments that we are living now as you know, life is really really really damn freaking bastardly SHORT! So, start to appreciate and be grateful for everything we got :)

Oh ya, i haven't been updating my recent life, didn't i? hahahahhaha. Have been enjoying my study life plus hanging loitering life with a bunch of good friends! Another year and i'm graduating already, i guess i will be freaky missing this life cuz i don't have to work and earn and survive myself and i can play and fool around like a happy clown. But too bad, i have to be awaken after 3 years' of long sleep. hahahahaha.
And i have one new friend with me for 2 years and i have it wearing no matter what happened, i bet me and this new friend gonna be very good friend as i have to eat, sleep, shower, and play with it on me. And this new friend is ensuring me a beauty result after 2 years of sticking with it. And that is.... BRACES!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Yea! I'm on braces now. I have to be honest that this friend seriously tortured me till the max. I lost 2kg of weight just because being friend with it but i'm thankful that i'm not round like a doreamon anymore :p hehehehehehehee. Hopefully i don't look awful with this braces on :p

Pls: I'm living to cherish and be happy every single moment! :D

the returns

i'm lonely, i'm tired, i'm missing you again, once again...

heart beats, tear sheds, mixed feeling...

i keep telling myself things will be alright, time mends, etc. but the truth is, when comes to the reality, i'm still such a coward who can't face myself and everything. 

i know only me, myself can help myself out. i know i gotta be strong no matter what. 

but...

i'm just lonely, i'm tired, i'm missing you again, once again...

i just wanna smile like a shinning star :'(

pls: things passed so so long, i'm here sincerely hoping that memories and feelings would also go  away just like how time flies. i'm such a coward. i'm sorry. i hurt myself once again.

i'm sorry, aemybeheiyping. :'(

I'm vain

Sometimes, things don't go on as what you wish it could be. I don't know. All i know in my mind is that i can't afford to fail myself once again, like once again! This is what i keep bearing in my mind always and always and always. I know i'm a little bit vain, like more or less but i really can't help cuz sometimes i really think that i'm just really hopeless and useless. :'(

Pls: I promise this is gonna be my last time to post such emo post once again! I wanna be a happy girl like what i had promised sei fish last night. I don't wanna let anybody down cuz i know they care a lot for me and i have to prove that i'm really a tough girl who can overcome every obstacles in life. :D

华文记

时间久了。。。就什么都不再那么地重要了。

因为时间真的能让一个人看开了许多哦。。。

哈哈哈哈哈`。。。鬼脸的我 :p

pls: 我要发出内心地大笑。 哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈。。。！！傻了我@@

Fullstop!

Just another day. Well, i had stopped working few days ago already. Feel kinda relax, at least, i don't have to wake up early in the morning and come back only at night. Everyday routine was only go to work, finish working then sleep and keep rotating the same again and again. 

HAHAHAHAHAHA.  I know i kinda good in whining things but i just can't help cuz working as a promoter is TIRING & BORING!!

Anyway, gonna start new sem already and it's time to say bye to mommy, home and Taiping and hello to Penang again!

Time flies, seriously! 4 months just passed like this, like nothing at all, like it was just 4 days. But actually in these 4 months, i spent 2months fooling and also touring in Aussie, 1 month working and another month rotting at home. What a summer semester this year?! Gonna miss holidays once again after classes started!

Is time to start fighting for new semester again! Sighhh~ when i think of assignments! Tons of assignments waiting for me! There are all nightmares :'(

Just sharing a pic of mine.

This was taken last month in Penang Hill while i was waiting for my henna art to be drawn!

 hehehehehehee

Pls: Time mends :)

Still RIP, Mommy!

It's been a year. Time flied, seriously! Like it was just a blink of eyes...
But i still remember every single scenes that happened this day. It was just like happened yesterday. I couldn't believe it already been a year until i saw on the calender.

21st August 2011/ 22nd August 2011, were the toughest days i ever had in my entirely life. I will never forget what happened in this day cuz it was the day i lost the person i loved the most in this entire whole planet. It's still very fresh on my mind. I remember everything and my heart is so heavy and hard on the moment cuz i just can't help myself with anything. I don't know. I really don't have any ideas. I don't know how long it gonna takes for me to let go but i know i have to be tough. I can never break down cuz i didn't want to disappoint anybody especially her. I will just keep telling myself, everything is gonna be alright and i'm gonna be alright. I will be alright!

Mom, thanks for everything you had done in my life. Without you, i will be still be that girl who don't know anything about life and live just in her own world and pretended like a princess like nobody's business. I'm just so grateful for your presence! I know i can't have you back in my life anymore but i know you will always be with me, always be, I know it. I promise i will be good. I will make you proud.
Mom, I love you! :')

Pls: Mommy, 1st anniversary! xoxo

August Month

I know i had been disappearing for quite some time already but please bear with me, kay?

I have been working dead hardly recently after came back from Penang for my 22nd birthday celebration. 

Well, all i can say is i really had the most awesome birthday ever in my past 21years cuz i have all my beloved surrounded me and i'mma the most happily birthday girl ever!

Thanks for everything kor, his gf and not least my sei fish made all the efforts came all the way from Kampar to Penang just to give a blast birthday! I love all of you! muacksss! hehehehehehehe :p

me and gay fish up at the Penang Hill! :p

I'm working to be a better one. So, bless me laaa :)

Pls: It's time for bed. Nights, aemybeheiyping! It's gonna be a branded new day tomorrow. So, have a sweet sweet dream and start fighting like hell again for a better tomorrow :D

Pre-22

Many people would say, this kinda of rock song will not be my cup of tea. If you were one of them then you are wrong. This is because i really like this song very much since ever the first time i heard it. I don't know why but i just like it, love it. 

I remember there was one person who said the same thing to me when i asked him what's this song? And he answered, 'Dear God.' and then he added on, don't be silly, it's a rock song and girl like you won't like it. HAHAHAHAHA. 

Just wanna declare myself, i'm a girl who you can't predict on as i'm mysterious like a magic man. :p

'How i miss someone to hold when hope begins to fade...'

And i'm turning 22 soon, like very soon, in a few more hours.

All i hope is a better 22 ahead this year!

Imma reborn-ed again! Once again! 

Cheers!

Pls: Thanks mommy, for bringing me to this world. I love you, mommy! xoxo~

something about melbourne and me.

Just 2 random pics taken when i was in Melbourne last month. 

Spot the changed of sky! It was just a different of few sec anyway. 

That's why my aunt used to tell me, you can't predict the weather in Melbourne cuz you can have 4-seasons changed in a day! Yeayy! IN A DAY!

Maybe you woke up in the morning with a sunny sunshine and you were planning to go for a jog but when you got everything ready, the weather might just turned you down. 

So, i have been feeling grateful all the time as life is too short to count on. Really hell short!

So, appreciate everybody, everything or anything you are having now and eventually you will feel much happier in life :)

And one more thing, i'm hell gaining weight! HAHAHAHAHAHA!

I know i'm kinda flabby now but i guess i still look pretty :p

*pls bear with me perasan-ness, kay?* hehehehe

But i'm seriously gonna lose some weight before i have my next big meal again! 

So, stay tuned for my next turn-over! :D

pls: i'm happy go lucky :p

something about me

I'm just a girl who wants nothing more but happiness and peaceful-ness in my life. 

So, do bless me more with alot plenty more happiness pls :p

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Pls: Just too young to think so much. Live smart and play hard!

NEWY

Is a branded new month and is all my fav month, July! 

Pls: Happy post-birthday to myself, perhaps? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Beautiful Rainbow After So Lonnggg

Hmmm... Flied to Melbourne for couple of days and i really enjoyed over there and and i love the city so much!!

It's really a very happening and nice city i ever saw in my past 21 years.
and so, what actually inspired me during the trip were some so called 'LESSON OF LIFE'.

Before this, i kept thinking that we as a human, 

we grow up,

we study, 

we find a partner,

we get married,

we have kids, 

we aging,

and we die.

HAHAHAHAHAHA. *i know i'm being stupid now*

I guess everyone will be thinking the same like i did but after this trip, i feel like we as a human should make our life more challenging, more colorful, more adventurous and many more instead of just keep going dully!

And the most important is we have to live dignity-ly and happily!

I guess i'm reaching my goals as i had promised myself. 

Is a good sign, isn't it?

 The most recent me. Taken at Albert Park in Melbourne, Australia.

Had a great time catching with Uncle Mal and Aunt Serene. They are really nice people and lovely too :)

I guess that's all for everything now. Nothing much to be updated already. See ya, Melbourne! I will definitely come back to visit you again!! HAHAHAHAHAHA

pls: Tough time do go away but tough people don't cuz they will keep fighting until the very last sec! :p

is a life i'm looking for

Guess what? I'm in Australia now!!

Yayyyy! Australia is just a nice country to be stayed.

I just love the weather here compared back in Malaysia which suck and hot like hell!

*pls: As you know i'm a candle princess :p*

hahahahahahahahahahahaha

Its been few days i were here, i walked around in the city and i get to find out that this world is really big and there are really million billion trillion of peoples in this freaky round little earth!

Finally, i'm sort of like awaken that we shouldn't let anyone ruin your life just like nobody's business. 

We should keep moving on even though you knew the road you had chosen is just a little bit rough but we just  have to keep moving on and moving on!

This is life!

We can't help or decide what is going to happen the next moment but at least you can decide and choose the pathway you wish to go.

I just hope i will be a better one after all.

:)

 I wish i could overcome every upcoming fears in the future without any hesitation. 

Pls: I wish i could find the real of me, myself and my soul as soon as possible ;p

the ever last shot :)

Darling, don't be afraid cuz i have loved you a thousand year !

Currently, I'm so in love with this song. I don't know why :/

Hmmm, i don't know what's with my feeling, my thoughts and everything.
Everything just seems to cramp up together.

All i know is i feel reluctant to leave Malaysia for a month! 

YEAY! A month!

I'm gonna miss mommy for sure cuz i don't get to visit her as often as i want it to be :'(

This is the ever first time for me to travel so far away out from Malaysia.

But i know it's gonna be a good starting point for me to get a new life and everything new. 

I promise myself to be strong no matter what happened.

I promise myself to be a better one and live a better life as i had enough with all those past memories.

I promise i'm gonna turn into a new leaf since ever i step back to the border of Malaysia.

I promise i will let the past be the past.

I promise myself won't ever be too stubborn over anything as i can't get everything control at the same time.

I promise i will love myself more than anything. I know it sounds selfish but it's a way of self protection.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. 

So many promises for myself in a month!

I hope i could make it and live a better and better life.

I know mommy wishes to see this.

Mommy, I'm still missing you dearly! :')

I promise i will smile and keep smiling no matter what :'D

Pls: It takes courage and tear to grow up and become who you are; It takes time and forgiveness to mend a broken heart; It takes a thousand year for people to realize who you are. Don't try to please others but just have fun and play your part.. HARD! :p

A small promise

I went for a photo shooting past few days and it was so damn freaking tired. I'm actually wondering how other people can actually stand with the modeling job and the thick makeup on their faces and the thick and heavy lashes lying on the eye lids. As you know, i'm that kinda of person who don't like to makeup easily and moreover bathing the face with so thick of foundation and powder!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA...
But when i looked back at the pics, it's more than anything! It's worth to stand under the hot sun and sweating like hell and putting on the thick makeup and smiling and posing myself like nobody's business. I really like the feeling of this pic. It is likes the sunshine that brighten up me, myself and myself :p
That's why i named the album in my Facebook as 'A better life; A better Aemy'

I hope everything is going to be alright and i want everything to be alright!
I have a small deal with myself.
I hope i can make it and reborn myself into a branded new leaf before i get back to Malaysia once again!

Pls: I am who i am and i know everything is going to be alright! Cheers aemybeheiyping!

Is an old wind

Deep down bottom of my heart,

'I still missing you dearly!'

Pls: I hope everything goes fine to you and may god bless you :)

once a new leaf?

For everybody info, i'm once back to single again.

Well, pls don't approach and ask me why? what happened?

Cuz i'm tired of answering.

I'm suffocating for air.

I just need time to get rid of everything again.

I know i'm gonna be alright once again :P

dedicated to you onlyyy :)

It's just randomly happened. We were stranger and we became friend, close friend and we revealed back to stranger again. And after so long, we are lover now :)

We just came from different background but i wanna you to know something.

I didn't wanna know a single shit about your past but i just wanna to know and take part in your future.

I don't mind who you are as long as we are bonded and stay still with each other no matter what happened and i promise i will be loving you always :)

Pls: be mine and i'm yours. i promise it's forever <3