the ever last shot :)

Darling, don't be afraid cuz i have loved you a thousand year !

Currently, I'm so in love with this song. I don't know why :/

Hmmm, i don't know what's with my feeling, my thoughts and everything.
Everything just seems to cramp up together.

All i know is i feel reluctant to leave Malaysia for a month! 

YEAY! A month!

I'm gonna miss mommy for sure cuz i don't get to visit her as often as i want it to be :'(

This is the ever first time for me to travel so far away out from Malaysia.

But i know it's gonna be a good starting point for me to get a new life and everything new. 

I promise myself to be strong no matter what happened.

I promise myself to be a better one and live a better life as i had enough with all those past memories.

I promise i'm gonna turn into a new leaf since ever i step back to the border of Malaysia.

I promise i will let the past be the past.

I promise myself won't ever be too stubborn over anything as i can't get everything control at the same time.

I promise i will love myself more than anything. I know it sounds selfish but it's a way of self protection.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. 

So many promises for myself in a month!

I hope i could make it and live a better and better life.

I know mommy wishes to see this.

Mommy, I'm still missing you dearly! :')

I promise i will smile and keep smiling no matter what :'D

Pls: It takes courage and tear to grow up and become who you are; It takes time and forgiveness to mend a broken heart; It takes a thousand year for people to realize who you are. Don't try to please others but just have fun and play your part.. HARD! :p

A small promise

I went for a photo shooting past few days and it was so damn freaking tired. I'm actually wondering how other people can actually stand with the modeling job and the thick makeup on their faces and the thick and heavy lashes lying on the eye lids. As you know, i'm that kinda of person who don't like to makeup easily and moreover bathing the face with so thick of foundation and powder!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA...
But when i looked back at the pics, it's more than anything! It's worth to stand under the hot sun and sweating like hell and putting on the thick makeup and smiling and posing myself like nobody's business. I really like the feeling of this pic. It is likes the sunshine that brighten up me, myself and myself :p
That's why i named the album in my Facebook as 'A better life; A better Aemy'

I hope everything is going to be alright and i want everything to be alright!
I have a small deal with myself.
I hope i can make it and reborn myself into a branded new leaf before i get back to Malaysia once again!

Pls: I am who i am and i know everything is going to be alright! Cheers aemybeheiyping!